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Mum calls e pastor a "Godfather". Cuz "shen fu" marX... =_=

Once there was a little boy, Ching. Through his childhood he's been protected and taught good values by his father. His father is like e bestest man on Earth and this little dood literally worships him.

Now tt this little man's strong and able to protect himself, he grows distant from his father, but like all asians, there's a deep respect for the elder.

Then e day came. Today, an almost overly excited old man came to Ching's door, and told him, tt e "dad" e man's acknowledged as father all these yrs was not so. And not only tt, this godly figure to him was in reality nth but a filthy, demonic damnation tt shldn't even have existed in e first place!

Ching's Father's actually a foreign Man, and e richest, most powerful, most influential Guy everywhere... and e old man told him tt they are actually siblings even though they looked as different as heaven and Earth, and tt Father was willing to forgive and forget all his past deeds and links with e devilish rival of a father if (and only if) Ching was to come clean abt it and believe ONLY his real Father from tt day onwards.

"Isn't it a lil' presumptuous of Him to nt come personally if He's sincere abt recounciling with this son of His?" Ching was more than slightly insulted by e strengh of e old man's words in demeaning who he still wishes to believe as his real father.

"How dare you doubt Je... *aHem* Well, wad I mean is... He's nt here nw but one day, if you chose to stick to Him, one fine day He'll allow you to meet Him, but till then, I'll talk to you on His behalf, I understand His wishes..." e old man said, in a well-rehearsed tone.

"But... I thot you said... nobody understands Him?"

"Well err... I err... He tells me wad to do, so at least I noe wad He wants. Yea... tts it..." it was almost he was hiding smth... his word showing anxiety when questioned abt his promotion.

E yrs gone by... e yrs when this man was most vulnerable... e yrs when, if the man he'd been calling "father" was really as evil and malevolent as e old man talking made him to be, Ching wld most likely be murdered... e old man put it as if it didn't really matter tt Father was nt arnd to protect him all tt time... as if it didn't really matter if Ching didn't really feel like he needs to be protected anymore nw than then...

And it didn't matter hw much he screamed and threw stones at tt old man, hw much he really wanted to say "tell tt useless Guy to pack up and go fly a kite, He wasn't there when I needed Him e most... why's He here nw?!", it didn't really help. E old man believed in his Father as much as Ching hated Him...

Ching felt stressed cuz alot of his childhood frens, albeit indebted to his previous father in all sorta ways, turned out to believe this old man's talk and went in search for this real Father's love and protection.

Peer pressure, y'know...

Well, y'see, Father understood Ching's current language, but preferred it if he cld come up with a new language tt only Father and son shared, and frowned upon any of his new siblings even trying to help him by demonstrating how their own dialects sound like.

Sometimes at night, Ching lay in his bed awake. He'd think abt e times shared with his previous, supposedly fake "father", even if tt man was an emotionless person, even if tt man was sometimes selfish and nt as all-benevolent as this Father... he was still...

But he dared nt think too much, Father may be watching...

It's a true story, nonsensical as it is. Even if everything said is true, there may be some truths which will nv be said...